In the rushes

barefoot, passing through
I knelt down to get a better view
of what grew there
well what grew there?
scared, heard a terrible sound
lay down played dead
that’s when I heard it clearer
in the rushes a voice said:

you could walk around forever
and never notice me
a little closer in the rushes
hiding down among the reeds
a seed
I swallowed
it digested quick
but not enough to not make me sick, I lost it
it tasted like a light going off inside my mind
then suddenly I was out of harm’s way
forgetting the desire to remember
trans tourist vanished
finished damaged playback
I felt myself unraveling at a racetrack
I felt myself unraveling at a racetrack
then I coughed up blood
scraped it off my tongue
sucked it off my thumb
but it was rotten
care, to care
I knelt down but you weren’t there
anymore
I was pushed into a bush
in the rushes on the screen
it was all acting
can’t believe it
believe that I had seen it
remembered who was in my arms
remembered when I had arms
it’s like a dream
the way that it unfolded
like I’d been in the rushes without knowing
I kissed it but I must admit
I missed it now I do forget
like I’d been in the rushes without knowing
you’ve been forgotten
you’ve been forgotten
You are forgotten
it’s been forgotten
you’re all forgotten